Meanwhile back to the wonderful experience I had. I was reading "Inner River" and fell off to sleep one afternoon last week and as I was waking up, just in the moment between sleep and consciousness I saw in my mind's eye my self as a child. I was laying in bed in the afternoon probably the year 1960 as I sensed that I was around 7 or 8 and had fallen asleep reading. My present self had the sensation that I was actually there in that time with the warm sun on my face exactly like I was here in the present. I had the thought that I was actually physically occupying that space in time as my young self and that I could stay there in that time and that space if I wanted. I also felt compelled to tell my young self that I should not worry because everything would be fine as you have found much happiness and love here in the future. Just as I had that thought I was simultaneously experiencing the exact moment in 2002 when I was filled with the holy spirit lying in my bed one evening after months of prayer and scripture reading ( In that experience there was an element of time involved that what seemed like minutes actually lasted several hours.) In the present the Holy Spirit was not finished because at the same exact instant I was also reliving another spiritual experience that transpired in 2012. So it was bang, 1-2-3-4 actual historic events of my life happening simultaneously in my vision. That is what I decided I must have been having.
The amazing thing is I was filled with such joy I cannot describe! I was crying, I was laughing, I was praising God and feeling like I was going to explode with happiness! Unbelievable! Lord Jesus Son of God, have mercy! Kyrie Eleison, even. Wow! I kept saying "Lord, what just happened?" Amazing, wonderful, awesome. I wanted more but I don't know if I could have handled it. I also think I was seeing events in time as God sees them. He is outside time and space so he sees our past, present and future. The love I felt was overwhelming! Ever since then I have been so happy. We went to Liturgy on Sunday and I really want to become Orthodox now. I emailed the priest asking for guidance on what steps to take and am waiting for a reply. Has anyone out there had such an experience before? Did I have a vision? What is the Holy Spirit telling me? I am excited about the future and will keep you posted! Praise God! I would also like to hear from other believers your experiences.